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tonight is one of those nights, those night where i fear about my life,  my problems. i suddenly feel down,  i couldn't stop my emotions,  tired.  don't even saying "i feel you" unless,  we have the same chaos,  the same problems, the same mess, the same life. 

i've always been too scared of the reality  sometimes reality is a mess sometimes it's happiness always want something that i can't have call me selfish  always fail call me foolest but that's my reality  i'm being haunted by memories by the feelings by the people i can't handle it they can breaks me  i'm not strong enough  ..and where's the happiness? when thinking  and dreaming everything will be okay, soon. s o o n

"There comes a day when you realize turning the page is the only one option." source: Pinterest . . . . . . . . . "Jangan takut keluar dari zona nyaman kehidupan untuk menghasilkan sesuatu yang lebih baik."  source: Pinterest . . . . . . . . . "Be a better you, for you."

Tahun baru, Langkah yang baru,  Masalah yang baru,  Kebaikan yang baru,  Kesalahan yang baru,  Kebahagiaan yang baru,  Kesedihan yang baru,  Suasana yang baru,  Semua itu menghasilkan kehidupan yang baru.  Aku hanya ingin baik,  Semuanya baik,  Aku hanya ingin bahagia,  Semuanya bahagia, Aku hanya ingin lebih kuat, Semuanya terhadapi.  2017,  Jadilah tahun pelengkap dan penyelesai dari tahun-tahun sebelumnya,  Tahun pemberi pelajaran dan pengalaman .

Sometimes, I feel strangle My emotions overwhelm me so much and I'm just stumped with sadness and I don't want to be that way I don't want to be sad all the time and sometimes I don't even know why I just want to feel things like a normal person And in the end All I learned  Was how To be strong Alone.

Sometimes,  I go through something and it hurts and I don't know if things are going to be okay again. But then days go by  and I don't feel like crying and I wonder what it means that I am fine. I think maybe I'm ignoring my emotions  and that they'll come back out of no where.  Until I'm driving home,  singing along to the radio,  and I'm realize I am happy. Maybe that thing didn't break me, because I'm stronger than that. Maybe I can survive anything. Maybe I finally want to. 

Time; The healer And The killer. Some days,  i feel everything at once. Other days, i feel nothing at all. I don't know what is worse: Drowning beneath at waves or dying from the thirst.